Countdown

Well, we have a 90% sure date for my next (and hopefully last) major surgery. I was hoping to get it done earlier, but you know how things go. Life has a way of throwing curve balls at you. The only thing you can really do it either dodge them, or take the blows like a man, so you may as well enjoy the ride (or so I keep telling myself).

So life is kind of in a crazy limbo at the moment. I've effectively put the love life on hold, as I don't want to drag some poor unsuspecting girl into the drama of my life. The social life also took a hit, because some people who I thought were friends at the time of my first surgery pretty much didn't call or anything during the whole time I was in excruciating pain. I acknowledge that there is a certain degree of whining/feeling sorry for myself in this post, but there's a point. Friends who are true friends are there for you. It's as simple as that. If they can't be there, then they make an effort to do something else (a phone call etc.). When you're in so much pain that you just want someone to end your life, and only a handful of people are there for you, it changes some of your views on human relations.

I think one of the results of something like this is the fact that I'd rather talk to someone face to face, or on the phone as opposed to facebook. (twitter doesn't even enter into this). It's sad that some people only know me as either just another facebook friend, or as a gaming avatar with a microphone. I also try to be quick to apologize if I've said or done anything wrong to anybody. I'm not perfect at it, but I don't want to have any enemies when I eventually die.

And yet you can't please everyone. Quite the conundrum, isn't it?

“I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.”
-Bill Cosby